Nearing Graduation, Mother's Day and a wedding anniversary

Okay the month on May is a busy one for me. I got three finals left and I am done with school!!! I am so excited that this long journey has been nearing an end. As far as education though I am finding out that I still have many continue education courses a head in my future (honestly I do not mind learning).

Can you believe it Mother's Day is almost here again. To honor our mothers for putting up with us (Stephen and I) I think we are going to have a breakfast for them at our house. Stephen has been experimenting making different pancakes for dinner for the past few days (which I have been enjoying). So far he has made yummy blueberry and apple cinnamon pancakes and yes they have been heavenly with warm maplebutter yummm. He can keep experimenting with cooking I definately do not mind...lol

On May 17 I am going to celebrate my 6th wedding anniversary. I can not believe that it's been six years, in some ways it feels like we have been together longer and in other ways it hasn't. I am so glad that I found and married my best friend. We have gone through so many things together in this short period of time and honestly it has made us closer and stronger than I could have ever imagined. I am not sure what we are going to do yet but I have a feeling it's going to involve good food and entertainment...lol

Just venting.....

In some ways I understand a feminist view of a woman's role however, I do not believe women can be better than men and vice a verse since each situation is different. Some roles are meant for men and others are for women. and in my marriage we share responsibilities equally.

I am discussing the topic of the typical housewife that stays home and take care of kids and the career women. My husband and I have had many discussions about the role of the women and yes we both agree that a child needs their mother when they are babies however, really once they start school around the age of 5 the mother is not needed as much. I feel it is important for children to socialize with other children their age.By experience I have notice a great deal of improvement with my daughter going to school and interacting and learning from other children than when she was isolated.

Each situation is different concerning whether to be a SAHM or a career women however this is what I am venting about that gives women in general a bad name. This is about the women who does nothing but go to little social events (shopping, eating out, ect.) and complain that their lives are so difficult. Oh and to top it off from listening to their husbands they don't even upkeep the home because they are too busy with their social events and expect their husband to take care of things when they get home from work. I can not even comprehend how their lives are difficult unless your child is special needs there should not be any excuses. I have managed to work, be a mother, go to school full time, take care of a child that needed medical attention and it makes me mad to be somewhat compared or being told by these mothers that they have a hard life.

Another pet peeve of mine is when people think they know it all and really have not a clue. For example, as ridicules as this sounds I have heard people read books and cite what they read, it could and in most cases be inapplicable to what they directed the citation to and some people who don't know any better think the person is a genius because they are able to cite from a book by memory. Oh and my favorite is the media told me so or I read it online so it must be true! Come on people you do not necessarily need a college degree to be educated but you need to back up your sources to even make it a slight bit true and memorizing books does not classify that person as a genius.

I just had to vent and get a few things off my chest because I don't think my tongue can take any more biting.

Dealing with FrUsTrAtiOn

Has anyone have those moments when everything seems to be going well for others and your stuck or continuously being hit with one bad thing after another? Sometimes you think what did I do to make God so angry? Then I start thinking and honestly I begin to realize that maybe I actually do deserve whats coming towards me. I have a problem of trying to take things in my own hands and God reminds me from time to time that I have NO control over anything and that I just need to rely on him. This is unbelievably hard for me I have a hard time letting go and trusting. I was raised with a phrase and a phrase I personally use a lot but honestly makes me sick to my stomach "Everything happens for a reason". When everything goes good we use this phrase and when everything is going wrong we use this phrase. I guess the problem is the "unknown" associated with this phrase. Was this really in Gods plan (must of because it happen) or was this a result of my own stupidity? I guess when the challenges stop that is when I need to worry.

I guess at least I have the peace of mind that we have been challenge and have overcome a lot: we have been surviving being poor, we have survived watching our daughter go through three major heart surgeries, we have survive our past financial difficulties of medical bills and insurance companies, we have survive living on one salary that continues to decrease, we have survived the challenges associated with me going to school, we have survived working opposite shifts, we have survive the continual feeling of being lost and having hope. What amazes me the most is that we did this only through God. God gave us the means to not have to raise money for Mylie's medical care and rely on any government assistance for medical and welfare which I am so grateful because I have a growing concern on how easy people can stop taking responsibility because life required them to be adults. Don't get me wrong, I do believe that there should be programs out there to help people but they need to help people get back on their feet such as when they lost their job involuntary and only as a temporary last resort. I believe too much reliance on the government gives them too much power and makes them even more power hungry to take control.

I guess I need to look at dealing with challenges as a form of strength. I have seen and known people give up and take the easy way out when life gets a little difficult. I face our problems head on and don't run away from them because if I did the problems are always going to be there and honestly how long can you keep running away from them?

Welcome to my world

So, I decided to start blogging to keep a journal about what is going on in my life and hopefully look back and see how much I have grown over time. Life has been a little crazy, I am trying to work on end of the semester projects, study for tests and try to get into the holiday mood. I have been frustrated with myself because I have been making a lot of stupid mistakes and I am not performing as well as I would like. The hard thing to do and I honestly have been trying to not let things get to me and just focus on what needs to be done.

On a happy note, I have been chosen to receive a scholarship to take classes with IREM to get my CPM certification. It's crazy because a week ago I still did not have a clue what I am going to do with my degree. The beginning of the semester I put in an application for a scholarship and didn't think anything of it since I had nothing to lose but time writing up an essay. Anyway, on my application I explained that I was interested in commercial property management. My instructor asked me how serious I was about the field and I told him that I was very interested. Well IREM chose me for the scholarship and is having a holiday party on Dec. 2nd were they are going to present me with a scholarship for certification classes. Yes I did say classes, I am taking more classes starting next semester and the good thing is I did some research and found out I can take the courses online or homestudy. If all goes well I am going to be certified as a commercial property manager. Funny how God just leads you to where you need to be and open doors to you when you least expect it. I just trust God knows what he is doing because I sure don't!

Yesterday, I spent the whole day fixing my resume adding more information and writing up a professional cover letter. I submitted to two internship positions that are available for next semester. One is for Vester which deals with commercial properties, they are known for developing and managing the Target centers here in AZ. The other one is for MODE property management. I was disappointed that I didn't get the Westcor internship position this semester however, with my classes there was just no way I could of balanced both. So God was watching out for me and didn't want me to push myself over the edge. Again, I am leaving my future in Gods hands and hopefully he will continue to shed some light on my path.