Dealing with FrUsTrAtiOn

Has anyone have those moments when everything seems to be going well for others and your stuck or continuously being hit with one bad thing after another? Sometimes you think what did I do to make God so angry? Then I start thinking and honestly I begin to realize that maybe I actually do deserve whats coming towards me. I have a problem of trying to take things in my own hands and God reminds me from time to time that I have NO control over anything and that I just need to rely on him. This is unbelievably hard for me I have a hard time letting go and trusting. I was raised with a phrase and a phrase I personally use a lot but honestly makes me sick to my stomach "Everything happens for a reason". When everything goes good we use this phrase and when everything is going wrong we use this phrase. I guess the problem is the "unknown" associated with this phrase. Was this really in Gods plan (must of because it happen) or was this a result of my own stupidity? I guess when the challenges stop that is when I need to worry.

I guess at least I have the peace of mind that we have been challenge and have overcome a lot: we have been surviving being poor, we have survived watching our daughter go through three major heart surgeries, we have survive our past financial difficulties of medical bills and insurance companies, we have survive living on one salary that continues to decrease, we have survived the challenges associated with me going to school, we have survived working opposite shifts, we have survive the continual feeling of being lost and having hope. What amazes me the most is that we did this only through God. God gave us the means to not have to raise money for Mylie's medical care and rely on any government assistance for medical and welfare which I am so grateful because I have a growing concern on how easy people can stop taking responsibility because life required them to be adults. Don't get me wrong, I do believe that there should be programs out there to help people but they need to help people get back on their feet such as when they lost their job involuntary and only as a temporary last resort. I believe too much reliance on the government gives them too much power and makes them even more power hungry to take control.

I guess I need to look at dealing with challenges as a form of strength. I have seen and known people give up and take the easy way out when life gets a little difficult. I face our problems head on and don't run away from them because if I did the problems are always going to be there and honestly how long can you keep running away from them?